JESY Nelson begged fans to delete old snaps of her because she “hated” herself and didn’t want boyfriend Chris Hughes to see them.
The Little Mix singer has revealed she messaged fans asking them to take down old pictures because she disliked that version of herself after opening up about her suicide attempt.
The singer, 28, bravely told The Sun she tried to take her own life after receiving vicious taunts from bullies, admitting: “I just took as many tablets as I could.”
Jesy reached an all time low after a performance on X Factor back in 2013.
Speaking on today’s Lorraine to I’m A Celebrity star Emily Atack, Jesy said: “Honestly I’d wake up every day and feel so miserable and sad.
“I couldn’t make myself happy. The only time I’d forget about it was when I was asleep.
“When I first got with Chris, I’d see him get tagged in old pictures of me. I’d message the fans and be like: ‘Please can you get them taken down?’”
She added: “I hated that version of me so much because of the way I was made to feel. I didn’t hate her before. That version of me got me where I am today.”
Jesy had candidly spoken about her struggles in new BBC Three documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out.
Speaking hoped her story would help others as she spoke about her reason for talking about it now.
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She said: “For five years I was suffering from depression and I didn’t want to talk about it. One, I felt embarrassed and ashamed.”
“And I thought, two, if I keep talking about this I am never going to get away from that.
I didn’t want to be known as the fat ugly one from Little Mix.
“I thought if I keep talking about this how is it going to go away and how will I feel happy again. But what I didn’t realise is by not talking about it, it actually made me worse.”
YOU'RE NOT ALONE
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.
It doesn’t discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It’s the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it’s rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You’re Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let’s all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You’re Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
- CALM, www.thecalmzone.net, 0800 585 858
- Heads Together, www.headstogether.org.uk
- Mind, www.mind.org.uk, 0300 123 3393
- Papyrus, www.papyrus-uk.org, 0800 068 41 41
- Samaritans, www.samaritans.org, 116 123
Meanwhile Jesy’s loyal boyfriend Chris has heaped praise on girlfriend Jesy Nelson after she spoke about her suicide bid.
The Love Island star – who started dating Jesy earlier this year – says the Little Mix singer is “the best role on the planet” for talking about her mental health struggles.
He wrote on Twitter: “My girlfriend is the best motha fu***** role model on this planet!”
It comes after Jesy revealed to The Sun that she tried to kill herself relentless trolling on Twitter about her appearance.
She took an overdose of pills and went to bed — but was saved because her then boyfriend found her and called an ambulance.
She told The Sun: “I just remember thinking, ‘I just need this to go away, I’m going to end this’.
“I remember going to the kitchen and just took as many tablets as I could. Then I laid in bed for ages and kept thinking, ‘Let it happen. Hurry up’.”
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