ALISON Lapper has revealed the moment that cops knocked on her door and told her that her 19-year-old son had been found dead.
The devastated mum spoke of the “living hell” she had been in since Parys, who was sectioned at the age of 17, was discovered in a Sussex hotel last month.
Alison became one of the most famous women in Britain when she was immortalised by artist Marc Quinn in a sculpture at Trafalgar Square.
The 54-year-old – who was seven months pregnant with Parys when she was sculpted in marble by Mr Quinn – spoke to This Morning today.
She recounted of the last time she saw her boy, on a day trip to Brighton shortly before he died.
The artist told Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield: “We had a lovely Saturday together in Brighton.
“It was where we took the last photo we’ve ever had taken together. He was himself that day, he was back to my laughing, very funny Paris. But then I’d lose him again.”
Alison revealed she was at her Sussex home when officers knocked on her front door with the terrible news.
She continued: “I was in the bathroom and someone came through and said ‘the police are here’ and I thought ‘what’s he done now?’
“But when I walked into my lounge the atmosphere was like ‘this isn’t right’.
“They said he was found dead and I was in complete denial.
“I thought “you’ve got the wrong person, he’s only 19, I only saw him the other day and we spoke on the phone”. There was no warning signs, no nothing.
“All I want is my boy back and I can’t, that’s what I really want. This is a parent’s worst nightmare and I’m living it. It’s hell.
“People ask how I feel but I don’t know how I feel. I’m numb and devastated. He’s a man but a young man and he had a lot to give and I haven’t got that anymore.”
She also criticised mental health provision in the UK, revealing how her son was placed in an anorexia unit before his death despite never having the eating disorder.
Alison said: “It was a unit for anorexics not someone suffering from depression and drugs problems ,within three weeks they said he’d be better in the community.
“ there needs to be a unit where they (young people) can go and feel safe, be treated with respect and not like they’re liars and all the issues are sorted out under one roof.
“He was still being shunted from pillar to post, something needs to change. I’ve had so many amazing emails saying this happened to my son or daughter.
‘If it takes me, because people know who I am, then I will stand up and start shouting. All I want is my boy back and I can’t, that’s what I really want.”
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Alison was thrust into the public’s awareness after a sculpture of her while pregnant with Parys was put in Trafalgar Square from 2005 to 2007.
Th artist was born with phocomelia – a condition producing defects similar to those caused by the drug Thalidomide.
She has never named Parys’ father, who left her before he was born.
Alison with Parys as a newborn – he appeared on the BBC series Child Of Our Time in 2010[/caption]
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